k, confirmed and settled. Im shifting! Relink @lemoncupcakechickenpie.tumblr.com. BYEBYE MY BELOVED BLOGGER!:(

me thinks imma stop using blogger, cause it keeps crashing on me, 

and it's really annoying when i really want t blog, but i cant cause their boss doesnt wna allow me to. :<

lemoncupcakechickenpie.tumblr.com

for the record, i do not really like cupcakes nor chickenpies, but im just using that cause it kinda rhymes tgthr, and it's temporal until i find a better one. (:

today just wasn't a good day

From me imaginary secret admirer;D
HAHAHA. No lahh, it's frm daddy to mummy for their anniversary!
He came home after work, gave her the flowers, and went 'will you marry me?' hahahahaha:D

k, so today was 'travelling around Singapore day'
yishun>admirilty>yishun>yck>hougang>yishun>harbourfront>pasirpanjang>yishun.
TADAHH!:D
admirilty to make PDL, hougang for 5mins to collect donationcard frm juniors(seriously, I think I'm mad hardworking-.-) harbourfront to get sushi, church for skitpractice, Which thankGod, is improving and progressing.

K, shortshort update. Cause me veh tired.

#pleaselettonightgowithoutnightmares

thought for the day:
'the heart's a simple thing, it's the mind that makes everything so complicating.'

okay.
Shutup and sleep, elaine.

*kicks pillow
*kicks bolster
*kicks softtoys
*kicks everything away

restless.restless.restless.
I need benzodiazepam. (i just looove the sound of that medication!:D)

well in that case,

I need to stop blogging so much,
and do smthg more constructive,
like projects, homework or something. -.-

back from run.
So quickly tired, kinda starting to regret agreeing to do the 21K.
Sheeesh.

Must go and run tmrw mrng.
DISCIPLINE ELAINE.


Siaoliao. *faints.

WAH. I tell you hor.
This one very easy to say, very hard to do also!:O
but at least i got try lah hor. *excusesmuch.

HELLO!
Im blogging, cause i wna sing 'one night in BEIJING', but family all asking me to shutup already. :( so im gna blog so that it will take my mind of singing. But if you like the song, lemme knw yah. I sing with you!:D im gna upload the youtube video on FB laterr!:B likka karaoke style!:D (not me singing ofcourse) it's the ONLY chinese song i actually like. Googled for an english translation, but still do not really understand what the song means-.- but IDC, cause the song's madddcute!:D

k, to summarize today. To describe in it one word, today's a 'restless' day. Idkw. And contrary to what geri and nadia says, IM NOT RESTLESS EVERYDAY OKAY. Just today. Must be the weather! Hm.
One hour break, and me and geri , okay fine, GERI and I, walked to amk to get gongcha. So hardworking eh? HAHAHAHA. And to think i used to hate gongcha, but it's a perkmeup drink!C: but that said, i should really stop drinking bbt. Drinking once a day for the past few days!:O fatdieme. :O hahaha. Geri drank her -ithinkeww,buteverybodyloves- lemonroastedmelonsomethingtea, and i drank milkmelontea w white jelly pearl/whitepearljelly which was maddshiok:D drank finish the whole drink while walking back to school! And geri only drank 1/4 -.-

okay, shall go run run in a bit!
BYEBYEBYEBYE.


Random thought for the day.
It's easy to laugh, you just go HA. HA. HA. HA. HA. HA. And after awhile you'd really start laughing at how stupid you sound. \m/ TADAHHHH. Okay, i knw everyone prolly already knw that. Lol.

body so restless, cannot fall asleep.
:<
i need tranquilizer, or else tmr cannot wakeup for lesson!:O

#randomthought

i was just wondering.
When a person's hurting-emotionally, does the hurt transfer to the physical aspect? In simpler terms, if you're hurting emotionally, does your heart feel (literally) the pain? Is there some sorta connection to it? Like is it medically/scientifically proven that being upset causes your heart to hurt? Hmm.

thinking. wondering. thinking. wondering.
thinkingwonderingthinkingwonderingthinkingwondering.

truethat.


Hello! C:
boringboring day today. Public holidays are so boring when you're not going out. Absolutely nothing to do. Okay. Not literally nthg to do. I could always do homework, sweep the floor, so correction. Nothing i WANNA do. Decided to cut hair. So that at least something interesting would happen for the day. HAHAHA. NO MORE LONG HAIR ALRD! Though family went 'waste money, might as well dont cut', but i think now shoulderlength, so it's considered quite short ehh? Ahwell. Hair can always grow!:D
watched THOR after that with daddy and eunice. OKAY lah the show. Not absolutely fantastic. But it's quite nice. :D i dont regret watching it although it's not like- OMG.ILOVEDTHATSHOW kinda nice. But maybe that's cause im not really a thor-kinda movielover. Hahaha. Best show ever's still 'taken' i love liamneeson (ithinkthat'shisname) and piratesofthecarribean(iheartmaxjohnnydepp.hahaha) and 'thetourist', and 'cloudywithachanceofmeatballs'. TADAHH! C: okay, idk why im suddenly listing all my fav movies, but yeah. :D

okay, time to sleep.
Gnight beautiful people. (:



thinkingtoomuch'snotgoodforthesoul

faith, hope, love

10.36AM, i've just woken up. HAHAHA.
#elainethelazypigyip. :D

backache from the run yesterday, though i already expected it. Buut it's okay! At least it's an ache, not that kinda evilsharpshootingpain. This, i can handle. Sorry my poorback, please tahan with me for 2weeks okay! After that i promise to treat you nicenice! (: ache> pain. \m/

OHYAH. I wanted to blog my stupid nightmare. Dreamt that i failed PRCP. -.- in case some noobs here dont knw what that is, it's like a 6month attachment thingamajig where we work as staffnurses, though we're student nurses. And if we pass, we can graduate. If we fail, must repeat semester. So anyway. Failed PRCP, cause was so busy in ward, so i didnt have time to eat, so was in the ward, and somebody passed me magginoodles.and asked me to eat while working in the ward. Then sister came in, was shocked, so i spilt it on the floor, and failed because of that. -.- SAYWHAAT?! I dont even EAT magginoodles!:O LMAO. I keep getting weird dreams the past few days. Idk why man. Hahaha.
PUBLICHOLIDAY TODAY!
But likka no use, cause there's nthg for me to do ehh. :(
and my laptop crashed, so i cant even do project. Maybe i shall, *gasp go study for nursing lab exam! LIKKA GOOD GIRL THAT I AM. :D and then cycle to macritchie from yishun, and stroll around there. But that's just a MAYBE. Hopefully can though! Me dont wna rot at home! I'll just end up sleeping. Hahaha. :D



we'll see how it goes,
but whatever it is, i can handle it.

I VERY HUNGRY LEH.

this is new. im NEVER hungry at night. But im hungry now, and it's 1010. Howww? I dont eat late night food, cause the nxt day i tend to have a really bad tummy-in the appetite sense. Not the shitting sense. HAHAHA. But yes. I VEH HUNGRY!:O
should i eat? Should i eat? Should i eat?
Okay, there's nthg to eat now anyway. -.-
HAHA.

OHYES.
And i knw i said i wanted to blog about sermon, but i took MADLONG to type it out to a friend through email (using me teenyweeny phone) so me fingers too cramped to retype on blogger. Hahaha. BUT. You could always ask me IF you are intereseted. I will email you IMMEDIATELY. (cause i highly doubt anyone would actl ask. Hahaha. But if you do, i will send it!(: )

hahahahahaha. Forced eunice to bathe, cause she last bathed in the mrng. And she's fuming and whinning at me. But i dont care. She will appreciate when she doesnt fall sick from some germs or something! Im such a caring sister. Hahahahaha:D

okay, i shall sleep.
And will me tummy to fall asleep too!

大家好!:D

nomondayblues! Cause tomorrow's a publicholidayyy!
WHOOOOOP!:D

boringboring day. Drank gongcha today. Im drinking bubbletea like EVERDAY nowadays!:O in preperation for sundown though, eating more carbo and protein. Ate half of the nasibriyani's mutton, although USUALLY i do not eat met. Haha. I dont even know why im blogging this. Like nthg better to say. LMAO.

ANYWAY. Supposed to watch THOR after school ttoday w family, but didnt in the end. :( went for run with daddy. 5km, in hal an hour. Yeah i knw it isnt very good. But besides 2 short runs, i've not run for 4months okayyy! Hahaha. Likka tryna motivate myself only. HAHA. Not very tired, think i could sustain for another 5km. But ohmytian. Dont know how on earth im gna complete 21KM. *starting to regret. :O MUST PERSERVERE!

Okay, talkking about more positive things.
I. CAN. SHUFFLE! \m/
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Kept lauughing at geri and nadia who're on some sorta 'learning how to shuffle' project. Me and alvina kept rolling our eyes at them, cause they seriously looked maddddretarded. But. Reached home, and while waiting for daddy to come home, decided to try it out. And actually. It's quite easy when you've got the beat!
SO NOOOW,
IM A SHUFFLERRRR: LMAO.
Kinda like a good workout eh. Haha. Seriously can give you muscles if you keep doing it. Hahahahaha. :D

okay, watching irobot as im typing this.
bYEBYE!

i think that.

Everytime we're in an argument, and we think 'why cant he/she just try to see and understand what i'm trying to say?!' , we've always gotta remember that th OTHER party is probably thinking the same thing. And unless one of you all back off. The argument is just gna carry on. And you knw what happens if you just wait for the OTHER grp to give in first aye? Nobody EVER will make the first step. So you just gotta back down, and try to understand.
And listen, ask questions that help you understand,
but do not judge.

heart going into spasm mode.

I AM GOING FOR SUNDOWN AFTER ALL!

CAN YOU BELIEVEEEE ITTTT?!:O

k, so if you actually read my blog before, (pats you on the back), i really really wanted to signup for sundown, but apparently i was late in registering for about 5minutes or something? And so the vacancies were all filled. But today, daddy said his collegue isnt able to run anymore cause she's pregnant!
SO.
IM GNA REPLACE HERRRR!
*whoopwhoopwhopp
*dances around the room. :D

BUT.
Sundown is coming in 2weeks, and i have not trained AT ALL. 21k without training, but imma still gna do this. I can be the last person to reach the endpoint, but I DONTCARE. Cause i still have 'completeing the race' bragging rights! Heeheehee:D dont be jealous people!;D
but imma gna train everysingle day until nxt sunday. Hope i'll have the discipline!:O much as i dont really care about being the last. OKAY, who am i kidding, i DO NOT WANT TO FINiSH LASSSSST!:O so ima gna train real hard.

I dont ask to be the fastest runner. I just dont wna end up last!:O imagine everybody finish already but they cnt 'close shop' cause im still crawling to the end point.... But on the other hand, i might get in the news! Hahaha. Ehhh. I really very long never run longD already sia. :O

gambate elaine the mad awesome!

i liked church today, the worship and the sermon. (: lemme think, and i will summarize the sermon, but i'll do that tomorrow, so that i can think through it over the night. Haha.

But anyway, i have decided.
I will not whine.
I will not complain.
I will not get so easily angered.

I shall not be over optimistic, or whatever you call it, and say that i will not do all those forever and ever. Cause that's not realistic. And being human, i WILL fail. But for now. I will try my best not to do so, at least for one week. With God's help.

It's gna be tough, but.
WATCH ME.
\m/

i should not keep saying and saying, i should put my words into actions. So i've decided. If i break my promise of not whining, complaining and getting angry easily, i shall. *gulp. Give 10dollars either to any charitable organization, or during the next tithe. (TENDOLLARS MIGHT BE LITTLE TO SOME OF YOU, BUT IT'S A HECK LOT TO ME OKAY!) :( I MUSNT FAIL.

There's so many people out there in the world who's having it off so much worse than me. Who am i to rant so much when compared to many people, im having it quite good right. I mean, i've got food to eat, a place to stay, not much, but enough to splurge on expensivebbt (gongcha/Koi) every once in awhile. I have family and friends who love me (most of the time, hahahaha), im pretty healthy on the whole, and backpain or not, i should be thankful i can even FEEL pain. Becuase not being able to feel pain is actually worse than being able to feelpain. Seriously. (go read up on leprosy, or asask me! I will slowly explain, DONT REGRET! Hahahaha): so yeah. I should not complain. I will not complain.

I can do this. :D

spontaneous combustion.

and that's the new word i learnt this wk!
So. To put it simply, basically it's the term you use, when a person, for no particular reason, just bursts into flames all of a sudden. And the creepy thing is, their enviroment, and their clothes DO NOT GET SINGED. And their whole upper torso would get burned off, but their limbs will remain intact. So it's kinda like, ashes remaining, with 2legs. Way scary. :O
there're not many cases of this. As you can imagine. But there ARE proven cases. But since there're not many cases, it's quite hard to find out the reason for this weird bursting into flames.
But i think it'd be quite cool to witness somebody spontaneously combust eh? Though you'd prolly get nightmares for the rest of your life. :O and i think the word 'spontaneouscombustion', the way it rolls of your tongue does sound kinda nice. Hahaha. The word. Not the meaning. Duuuh.
Before i went google-ing and youtube-ing the definition, i wanted to add this to one of the 'elaine-words', cause i like long words. But now, i guess the only way i can use the word is when i dont quite like someone, i can say 'i hope you spontaneouslycombust like right now!' hahahahaha. Okay, i sound so sadistic. Ohmytian. Hahahaha. :O


#randompost.

a crossfire of emotions.

im glad this wk is over. it didnt treat me well. Tmr's sunday, it's a brand new wk, it's gna be awesome. Cause im gna make it awesome. I CAN DO IT.

Lemme continue the factsabout elaine.
I think i stopped at 14right? Im too lazy to chck. Hahaha.

#15 im a lazy ass. Hahahaha. Not really la. Sometimes im hardworking okay, but for most of the time, im really lazy. :x okay, *ashamed.
#016 im forever late. I kinda have a reputation of being late. :( class on friday was at 8, and nadia AND cheong called me to give me a wakeup call in case i was late. Cause the tcher would 'book us' if we were late. (i was early in the end!) but i WILL change, and be earlier for stuff nxt time. Try my best at least la.
#017i get angry easily. But i simmer down very quickly too. Though i know it's not good la. Though i think im TONS better thn last time. Heh. Now i only rant and whine, and then i'll feel guilty after that, and i'll cool off. At least i dont go smashing people's faces when i get mad okay!:p hahahaha.
#018 the fastest way for me to cool down is to go for a run immediately. Not just the run that helps, i pray and run at the same time, it helps. AWHOLELOT.
#019 i get annoyed when people do not reply me, even if they are unable to let me knw immediately, i think it's basic courtesy to just reply back 'okay, but i'll have to get back to you' or something. To not reply is just plain rude.
#020 irresponsible people are one of my biggest petpeeves.
#021 i KINDA think i dont get angry easily sometimes. I get annoyed, irritated. But not angry.
#022 i refuse to agree to something or an idea, just to shut the person up. I'd rather continue debating to make my point clear. I dont mind being wrong, as long as i have said everything im thinking, and im still wrong. Im not gna just agree to make you happy.
#023 and that would take rather long, because i do not argue for the point of it. I WOULD have checked out my facts before arguing a point.
#024 i do not do well at the girlcode sometimes, or at least the code that says, 'agree with your friend at all costs, whether they are right or wrong'. If you ask for my opinion, i would give my honest opinion, even if i feel that you're in the wrong. Though ther are exceptions some times.
#025 i would absolutely hate it, at that point of time, if someone did #023 to me. But after about 10minutes, even if i dont admit it, i would agree that it's good that you 'gave it to me', because when a person is angry they dont see straight, and it's always good to have a neutral point of view. An unbiased opinion.
#026 i think most guys in the world i jerks. So if you're exempted, that's quite an honour. Hahahaha.
#027 i love patrickthe starfish.


Okay, i just ended this with a retarded fact. Becuase or else i can just change this to 'bad facts about elaine'. -.-
i should write facts when im in a good mood right! Then i wont write all the bad stuff. HA.


randomstatement,
im tired of trying to fight.
I dont like my stuff messy.

politics post.

i've warned ya, so dont read it if you get riled up reading about people's views and politics.

Disclaimer: im not 100%pro PAP, nor 100% pro opposition. Everybody's entitles to their views. And this is just my view. To each his own.

So.
Daddy's colleagues texted him about the news,
'MM LEE AND SMGOH HAVE RESIGNED FROM CABINET'

and idk why it seems like only my father's generation, and me and my sisters, (idk bout the rest) are worried about the news. Or at least everyone's like, okay. Cool. And everybody seems to think it doesnt affect them at all. But HELLO people, whether in a small way, or a big way, it WILL affect singapore.

Mmlee and smgoh have worked closely with other countries, to maintain our trade and good foreign ties. Pro opposition or not, this we can agree on, aye? Now that they have quit, would you think that investors in our country will still continue investing? Maybe some will, but for most part, they'll be pulling out of all the deals, because they have to start from scratch again to build ties with somebody else who isnt as 'famous' as them. Ask somebody from overseas if they know LKY or GCT, they might know their names. But ask someone who lowthia kiang is, do you really think they know? Im not saying that LTK is lousy, or whatsoever, but he MAY be good in taking care of an SMC, but is he good enough to takecare of singapore?

And everybody's saying, 'i know opposition is not able to govern singapore, but i just want a change, or i want them to govern my smc/grc, not the whole of singapore', but if EVERYBODY just wants their own grc to turn into opposition, well hello people? Wont the whole of singapore turn into opposition? And honestly, do you think the opposition has the manpower, all the skills and knowledge to care for the WHOLE of singapore?

Change is good, but if the change is because you want a change, any change, without weighing the pros and cons, and be willing to look at the views of the team you do not approve, and it is not calculated carefully, sometimes, no change works better than change.

I admit, PAP has some rather screwed up people, and they do stupid things every once in awhile. But opposition has not shown themselves to be capable. Dont you think that they would screwup too? They claim to promise you wondrous things, and that they'd be transparent with the country. But tell me honestly, which political party is EVER fully transparent with the nation about all the goings on. But yes, you could say that they are new, and we should give it a chance. Well so be it, i do hope they'd impress singapore with their skills. And that they'd do singapore good.

HAPPYBIRTHDAY ALVINA! <3
you want small scale right? The amt of photos we took also likka small scale only, i just realized. Hahaha. Anyways, i hope you did enjoy our mini 'surprise' birthday celebration! C: thankyou for being a part of our lives, a part of GENA. The brains and sensibility behind our group. Idk why, i love kachiao-ing you so much, it gives me a sense of fulfilment when you give the, 'dk whether to laugh or to 'ELAINE!' me. Hahaha! You're my happypill!:D me trying to make you laugh makes me happy. Ikr, mad retarded. Haha. :D i love the mad sensible, and neutral advice you give, not saying the things i wna hear, but the things i should hear. It's quite rare for people to do that, i appreciate it. (: im not gna blow your brain up, and make you thickskin, (though i cant imagine you being one), so i'll end here. Thankyou once again, 'angel from heaven', for being sucha madawesome friend. I thankGod for placing you in my life. <3

the reason why humans are always so angry, is cause anger's an emotion that's alot easier to handle, as compared to 'hurt'.

fact#006 i love doodling. On anything, anywhere, with everything. (that's made up of chocolate, jam and icing btw)
fact#007 some people might call it disgusting. But im a very very messy eater. And i dont think twice about licking the chocolate/jam/icing off my hands. :D okay, that should be 2 facts, since they're abit non related.
Fact#008 im a very messy eater. I've kinda never eaten an icecream without it landing all over my face, hair and shirt. :D
fact#009 and yet, im very OCD. (obsessive compulsive disorder) i love alcoholwiping down my stuff when im bored, i love packing together boxes of different shapes and sizes, and making them into one huggeee box. I feel weirdly madawesomehappy when i put stuff into my bag, and it's not too full, not very empty, but everything fits nicely inside. Just likka madshiok only. When the stuff i put into something fits altogether nicely. Idkw.
Fact#010 which brings me to the point, im very contradictory. Im so messy in everyway, and yet so OCD when it comes to some stuff. I like everything happy and simple, and yet my mind's always thinking and analyzing daily matters. Like, thinking about different random people, and why they do stuff, and what kind of person they are. Not judging. It's like-a hobby when im bored. Hahaha. Kinda psychotic aye? I like observing stuff.
Fact#011 i like observing small random stuff. What people wear last week, i can rmbr somehow. Hahaha. How many 'hahas' or smiley faces a person usually puts in a text. I like observing and noticing small things that people do not notice. Though i cant backup my claim cause i suddenly forgot all the examples i have had.


Okay. That's a whooole lot for today. Hahaha.
Normal day today, once again. Besides the fact of 'surprising' alvina with a birthday cake. Though she didnt look really surprised. Lmao. Hahaha. But ahwell. She said she was happy and she liked it. So that's all that matters!:D oh. I suddenly though of a fact.

Fact#012 i talk REALLY loudly. Hahahaha. And laugh really loudly as well.

So surprised her, sang a birthday song, OMG. I wrote 'sang a birthday cake' lmao. And alvina was cutting cake. Nobody in the lecture hall, so i can talk loudly rigght!? Wrong. Geri keep bodytackling me to the floor with her hands over my mouth once again. Cause 'i so noisy':( and then gena would whisper 'we're not deaf', and i'd yell back, 'BUT IM DEAF!'. Hahahaha. I like talking loudly. You never know, one day you might lose your voice, and you'd really regret all the times you coulda talked, but you didnt. And it's so sad to live in regret!

Oh! Suddenly thought of ANOTHER fact. Hahaha.

Fact #013 im really childish. Fine i admit it.

Today even bear and cheong called me xiaomeimei. Which is what nadia usually calls me. -.- and eunice's friends came over, and they told eunice they couldnt guess whether meimei was 14 or if it was me who was 14. Seriously. Meimei does NOT look 19 at all. And i dont think i look 14? -.- though i admit im rather childish. Iknowiknow. I try my best to not be so childish, but it's so much easier to be childish, than to be wise and sensible. Talked to nadia about this to, and she said that i was 'really childish, but im mature as well', which kinda reinforces the whole idea that im pretty much contradicting myself allllll the time. Struggled with this issue, once bfore. Talked to buddy about it, from TAM, and some of the rest, and they said, if it's in my personality, i shouldnt bother changing it, just because i think it'd please others. Which is kinda true i think. So TOOBAD. You're stuck with a childish friend forever and ever, hahahaha. \m/ as long it's at the right time, admit it, i entertain you all right! HAHAHA.


Okkay, i think this post likka uber long. HAHA.
bYEBYE FOR NOW! C:

intentions.

everything all boils down to your intentions. Whatever your intention is, it affects how you you think. Which in turn, affects what you do or say, how you communicate or whatever, which would thus affect how somebody recepts it, which will result in the outcome.

So what's your intention?
To change how you do stuff, to change the way you talk. You've gotta change the world you think. Which is the root cause of the entire problem.



~
you just gotta keep trusting God,
and remember that He's the BigGuy up there taking care of you.

fact#002
i do not believe in 11.11, but i do like doing stuff at special timings such as '12.34, 01.23' or other repeated numbers. Which is why im blogging right now at 01.23AM now. HAHAHA.

Fact#003
I am absolutely addicted to blogger. I have no idea why, since it's quite a weird thing to be addicted to eh?

Fact#004
i cannot sleep if the temperature's hot, no matter how hard i try (which is why im awake at this hour) shirtless now, but older sister is in longsleeve, jacket, and blanket, since she's having the flu. (AND THE AIRCON NOT ON HOR)

Fact#005
i have a billion softtoys on my bed, but contrary to what most people think, they do not fall off in the middle of the night. Cause i line them up along the side of the bed.

Okay.
5facts done. I shall attempt to sleep again! C:

dear God,
hello. im on foreign teritory. this isnt what i usually do, kinda like a step out of comfortzone. but i did it anyway. i dont know if what i did was right, or if what i did was what You want me to do. and i dont know if i should have stayed in my safe comfortable circle, but it's too late to take it back. i like a simple happy life, God. i dont do too well with all those ups and downs in life, though i axknowledge that's life, and it's what helps us to learn. but dearGod, since i've already done it, please take care of me, and help me get through this whole thing. and let me know clearly, cause im abit slow sometimes, what exactly i should do. it'd be really extremely appreciated.
Thankyou God.
<3, elaine.

idk why i look so happy though casted. Lmao.

Day went alright today, nothing special i guess. I was thinking of doing to 100facts about elaine thing? People are doing it over twitter, but i think like, flood people's dash only, so i shall do it over here! C: one day one fact!

Fact #001
elaine is a very over sensitive person/girl.
Idk, maybe all girls are like, that? But im really sensitive to 'aura-s'. When people are sad, happy, being able to sense it although they dont show it. And i mean REALLY dont show, not those pretendpretend emo people who say they're not showing how upset they are, when THE whole world knows it. Not that kind. You might not think so, prolly cause i dont tell you that im sensing it. I guess sometimes it can be considered 'good'? But sometimes not really so, cause it's OVER sensitive. When somebody's angry, or i get angry vibes coming out from them, i automatically assume that im the reason why they're angry. Idk why, im just this way. Though they repeatedly swear that im not the cause of their unhappiness, i feel like i might have partly contributed to the upset. I always feel that people could be talking to someone better, and they dont wanna talk to me, but they're doing so out of politeness. Idkw, im just likethat. And that's stupid, cause like self-fufilling prophecy, i end up responding as though they REALLY do not want to talk to me, though the other party thinks that nothing's happening. Think it's a bad habit. Always ruining everything. Idk whether being sensitive is a blessing, or a curse sometimes. I could do so much better without it, though i guess we're humans and all, and it does come in handy, like when adelin's daddy went into hospital, and i didnt knw, but sat beside her in church, and sensed an 'aura', and then asked her, and realized. Kinda weird eh? To 'sense' things like that.


Okay, fact 1 so long cause it's been on my mind. The rest would be 2, 3 sentences! C:

heehee, :D i do love scribbling and doodling anywhere and everywhere! C:
(cant bear to wash them away from mah knees now though:( )

HELLO!:3

today's a madaweeeesome day!:D and imma list all of the points that i can rmbr. HAHA.

#001 rmbr i was talking about the tcher who made us do makeup lesson, cause we were late for class for FIVEminutes? TODAY HE TOLD US THAT WE DONT NEEDA MAKEUP ANYMORE! WHOOPWHOOP! :3 though kinda think it's dumb to have to do makeup lesson when he hadnt even start the lessons going. But still, apologized and thanked him for being nice. And more importantly, thankGod for being gracious to us! C:

#002 I CAN WHISTLEEEEEE! Okay, i KINDOF can whistle. Sometimes. And sometimes it just sounds like the noise mothers make to kids when they needa pee. lMAO. But still! To whistle is one of my to-do list before i, ahem, die okay. Hahaha. Just blew out air, and ALL OF A SUDDEN, I CAN WHISTLE! \m/ hahaha! Been half-whistling the entire day, geri likka fedup. HAHA. And people on the train like giving me weird stares! Selene also keep asking me to shutup. Hahahaha. But whoohooooo! Likka finaaally! Im gna learn how to whistle a tune now! Until i can whistle like nadirah, she whistles likka mad awesomely *jealous.

#003 WE HAD FREE GONGCHA TODAY! \m/ nadia and geri bought gongcha, i didnt, cause im broke. Hahahaha. But they gave us a wrong order, so they gave us the wrong and right order, so we received THREE gongchas! WHOOPWHOOP! So happy, but didnt gush at the counter, though geri said my face like showed like i was bursting and tryna control myself. Lmao. She just 'thanks' likka chill cat, but the minute i stepped away from the counter, was spinning and spiining around, screaming and laughing. Hahaha. And geri asked me why i was a so happy for. But hey, it's like free bbt ya know? Like the counter people could have kept the wrong one for themselves, and they gave it to us! Geri said it was service, but i dont care, it's like a unbirthday present! C: (and for the record, i dont like gongcha much, but still madhappy) :D

k, top three reasons. Hahahahaha.
Think i was bursting with happiness and joy today, cause geri kept putting her hands over my mouth and asking me to keep quiet. Hahahahaha! But i dont care, today's mad awesome! C: whoopwhoop! C:



okay, enough of that. Hahahaha.
So today in socio class, the tchr asked us (the lect hall) what's one word to describe your life. Dk why, but she picked me as one of the people to answer, and embarrassing max, went ' IS SHE ASKING ME?:O' there're like about 7 x 22 people in that hall okay. And so i said my life was 'noisy'. Geri said my life was 'happening', nadia said my life was 'innocent' (cause i asked them what they think my life's like) cause was kinda caught offguard, think i should have answered 'colourful' instead. Hahahaha. :D yup, i do love my life right now, it isnt exactly rosy and bright, and it gets kinda dark sometimes, but trusting that God woulda be taking care of me, i guess these up-s and down-s make it colourful, with bright vibrant colours, but also dull grey ones, but a mishmash of it breaks everything even. C:

dk why today church had so many cute stuff happening today!
#001 ended childrenministry, and was about to go up for sundayschool class, when i saw this little boy, sitting in the middle of the place at level1. He kinda looked like he was crying, so i went to him and asked him if he wanted to go with me to the room cause 'got aircon' (i know veh lame, idk how else to start!) brought him in, cause he was all sweaty, like seriously sweaty, use tissue to wipe him up, it just soaked through. :O small talk, and aske him what happened, he said 'nobody want to play with me', which is kinda ironic cause some people, or MANY people must have played with hime before he got tHAAAT sweaty. But ahwell, he's a kid after all. So listened awhile, talked awhile, gave him a lollipop and he was all smiles and running about again. How easily kids get contented! But i just kinda 'aww, at the reson for why he sat in the middle of church, kinda like in the middle of a room? Cause 'nobody' play with him. Kids are so adorable. (he's 5 btw!)

#002 this lil doggy, followed amber who happened to be jogging past church every where she ran, so she came into church, and the doggy followed! Poor doggy, guess he was abandoned/lost looked madscrawny, dirty, and his whole lil body was shaking!:( so poor thing. Nigel(tan) called spca. And though i guess it's good, but if he doesnt get adopted, he'll be put to sleep! wish sister didnt have asthma, and mother isnt scared of dogs, i'd bring him homee! But still, madadorable ehh?:)

#003 played games during childrenministry, and they were supposed to close his eyes, while we stick stuff behind their back. Walked towards him, and with his eyes tightly shut, he opened one, with the other still closed tight, to peek at me. Told him, 'must close eyes!', and he promptly shut them tight again. Omg. Madadorableee!:O though very naughty as well! Hahahaha. :D